Sight

I can't find the courage to journey outside- the rays of sunshine peak through the cracks of the window casting shadows across the room- I can't open the window, I can't pull up the binds- i can't feel the wind on my face- barred perhaps, barred in my own mind- It's harder to pretend that nothing is wrong- that breathing doesn't ache and that living doesn't kill. Trapped in my mind- pounding on some invisible barrier that keeps me from reconnecting- foolish i know- but i feel so trapped and no one can hear my screams.