Metaphorically Speaking

" I'm talking about life. In my kind of falling, there's no landing. There's only hitting the ground. Hard. Dead, or wanting to be dead. so the whole time you're falling, it's the worst feeling in the world. Because you feel you have no control over it. Because you know how it ends."

--John Green, Will Grayson, Will Grayson.

This is how my life feels right now-especially with all my mistakes, u-turns, and not listening to my GPS- I am now falling-no driving off the cliff repeatedly and it hurts every time I hit the ground. It's cold, lifeless, and hurts the more you hit it because your body doesn't have enough recovery time. So you not only break new bones- you re-injure old ones.

The worst thing about falling is that most of the time you don't realize it is happening till that split second before your body explodes and bursts into stars--maybe I have been falling too long, maybe i just need to breathe and actually slow down before I get too close to that edge. Maybe, this metaphor is cheesy and I sound like a raving lunatic--but, it's all real to me and falling in real life is just as painful as the mental- life crumbling kind. Either way falling is horrible and in most cases you can barely balance and catch yourself in time.